are you kidding me? - do I read books - lol - I have over 2000 of them - and keep getting yelled at for all the ones that get donated to me or that I buy because I go thru them so fast I read about 5 books a weekend - when I am not too drugged out - I love books - and I do have some motivational ones and ones on how to deal with pain and brain damage as I have been told that all the drugs I have been on for the past 2 years prolly caused a bit of damage -

I love books and can't live with out them - all the books I raffle off ar ones that I have read - and I donate a lot more to the hospitals and books exchanges that I know would be way to expensive to ship anywhere - I donated about 50 to a book exchange in the last 2 days trying to make space because my care giver is bringing me a bunch of books from her place as she is renovating and has 4 kids and 3 kids in law plus a soon to be in law all living with her and all love to read - so she is bringing me their old books so I have more to read -

I also play a lot of games to try and keep my brain functioning - I was told by my nuerologist (sp) that doing all this has prolly saved me from worse damage - he said he has had patients on weaker drugs for less time lose almost all ability to process thought and function - they become almost child like in their abilities and need to be treated for brain damage on top of their illness - I am going for a thorough assessment starting July 8th - it will take 3-4 sessions of about 2 hrs each - they want to assess how I am dealing with my illness, any effects from the drugs, and how much my past is affecting my now - I have had a very rough life with 2 ex-boyfriends who tried to kill me - and they want to make sure that that isnt causing my body to shut down on me - they think my brain is in overload with all the trauma and abuse I have been through in my life - and I am not saying that to get more sympathy - it is just a fact of my life that I have had to deal with and thought I had. I get great pleasure knowing that one of my exes was put in a mental institute for life over this - he deserves it - he was really screwed up - he thought he was saving me from my other ex - lol

I will let you know how the assessment goes - and whether or not I am crazy or brain damaged - lol

and thanks so much for caring - I really appreciate the suggestion and your posts - they keep me going and they keep me motivated to keep trying even when I fail over and over - because I feel like I can't let you down by giving up - no matter how much I want to when things are really bad.



Karen

Hey kaerbaer, glad to hear it's not gout and that you are able to get a little more sleep and ride your bike.

I am keeping you in my prayers, and buying points from you when I am able. (On a limited budget here myself.)

I have also checked out some of the raffles since I keep hearing you talk about them here on the forum.

You sound very positive and upbeat right now, so keep on smiling, and your new and old Tesas friends are here to listen.

I'm so glad there's something positive in your latest post kaerbaer. That always gives one more hope to live by. We're rooting for you to get better. I know that unless God performs one of his miracles that you won't have a clean bill of health, but good news is always a plus when we're ill. May you get some extra (needed) rest and ride that stationary bike for 10 minutes some day soon. My thoughts and prayers stay with you.

Awesome that things are finally starting to look up for you! Books are so cool, and of course they are great for keeping our minds sharp! Hang in there and all will come together!

Hi Karen,

Glad to hear that you've been finding the posts helpful.

I read books also but apparently not as many as you do.

By the way, as you've stated that you could use a little extra money. Are you by any chance a member of Matrixmails ? It seems to be a pretty good program.

Joined last Sat and made 76 cents with it thus far. Not including the clicks I'll do later today. And not including the amount I'll eventually earn from having referral members in my downline and not including the amount I'll also eventually earn from the matrix. Which isn't too shabby. Especially for a PTR or a PTC.

Just so you'd know.

hi,

I am a member of matrix mails - but am not making that much as I could be as I am not upgraded - I wish I could afford it but I can't - I would love to be able to upgrade and be a part of the matrix

I also don't have a downline there so don't have the added income to help eitherI wish I did - I am a member of several sites but am too sick to be active enough to reach payout levels - although I am upgraded at as many as I could afford - I use the money I get from the searches I submit here at TTM to upgrade and to pay for the extra stuff that may help me earn more and that will help keep my brain active to prevent further damage - which is slightly more important (meaning I buy books and games) I would be doing a lot better if I had downlines and upgraded members under me at some of these sites - but - I do what I can.

Thanks for the suggestion tho - I really do appreciate the help - in any form.



Karen

Well, Karen, I responded to your Word Linx ad and upgraded today. So you are (or should be) a little richer.

Matrix Mails: I took advice from someone whose opinion on PTR I trust implicitly and was told NOT to upgrade using the Matrix. I only had enough money to upgrade to annual Gold but now I have more I intend to upgrade to lifetime gold. When I do my PTC will be worth an amazing 2 cents each.

well thank you for that - I apperciate the help very much - and can you pm me with info on matrix? - I am very interested in what you have to say - as you are MY someone- lol

love ya

Karen

If you are not upgraded at Wordlinx, do it now. It's only $5.00 for the annuasl upgrade for a few more days and you lock in your upgrade fee at that price. It goes up to $10 after the end of the month. I upgraded about a month ago. I had just got paid for the first time from them and now with the upgrade and logging in about 4 or 5 times a day, I am almost at payout again.

I don't understand a lot about MatrixMails but I do my clicks and emails and i got one of the lower priced upgrades for 6 months to check it out. I haven't figured out the webpage they give you with it yet. I don't understand the matrix part at all. Good luck, Lydia

I am upgraded with wordlinx - a very nice fellow member loaned me the money to get upgraded there - and it has helped my income - I have jumped from 77 cents to almost 6 dollars now - but I find it hard to keep on top of it as I find it hard to remember for one thing - I find lots of things are hard to remember - but I also have a hard time with it because there are days where I just can't do much online at all - so I do what is most important to me - which is my emails and this forum and the raffles - once they are done I am just not able to handle any more

but I do appreciate the suggestion - and I didn't know matrix gave you a website - that's kinda weird



Karen

I keep all my PTR/PTC sites bookmarked in a folder on firefox and always keep the bookmarks sideview opened. That way I can go to whatever site I want when I get time and the bookmarks are always there to remind me. I do understand about setting priorities and having days when it takes effort just to do basic things. When I was going through chemo and for a long time after that there were days that all I could do was stay in bed or sit in my chair all the time.

The website they give you at MatrixMails is a lot like an affiliate page, but it has more than one page and is sponsored by them. I think they promote it for you, but I am not sure. Papy gave me some good tips on how to do it, I just have not figured out how to get started loading everything into it.

Prayers, Lydia

WIth Matrix Mails I would say upgrade to gold, preferably lifetime, without a matrix. And leave your money there until you have $4 in personal earnings as that way you get a bigger bonus.

I have found out a bit more. I upgraded to gold as I couldn't afford to upgrade to lifetime gold at that time. When I upgrade to lifetime gold I have to pay the full amount and then the difference will be given back to me. So I will be upgrading again when I have another $12.52. It would have been $7.52 but I joined WordLinx under Karen and upgraded immediately to save myself $5 a year. I intend to be in WordLinx for the long haul and as it is at Diamond Level at Beenpaid I can only assume the programme will be around for many years to come.

Karen,

I know that under the circumstances it might be a little easy for me to say, but sometime one's got to spend some money in order to grow. And that sometime one's got to spend some money in order to make money. I'm not necessarily saying to go and spend alot of money. But perhaps maybe just a little, just enough to have some room for growth. That's all. Just my constructive 2 cents worth.

that would be a lot easier if I HAD the money - but I don't - my disability payments are barely covering my bills now - and when my insurance runs out - which is getting closer and closer - they Won't be able to cover my bills - I am already in debt for the first time in my life (not including car payments) and I am struggling to get by on what little I have - and since my dad lost his job - he has no income and we are all living off my mothers income which is less than what I was making working part time - so I can NOT ask them for help - I do use my payouts from my programs to upgrade them when I canI am still trying to pay off my upgrade here at tesas's - and once that is paid off I will have more income - but until then I have to try and sell as many raffles and points as I can to get it paid off - I click as many links as I can when I am up to it - but that is not often enough to be of much help - so while I understand what you are saying - you can't get blood from a rock - if the money is not there to spend - you can't spend it - and I can't afford to put everything on my credit cards because I can barely afford the payments now - and upgrading at a lot of sites doesn't earn you more money - just gives you ads - which I am not well enough to put together and submit - and they also only help if you have downlines - which I don't at most sites - the few I do have a downline at - I am upgraded with the exception of bux.to - because it is way too expensive and there is no way i can afford it - and besides you have to pay for it thru alert pay - and I don't have any funds in alertpay - because I only have to programs that I use alert pay for - and one just changed to ads only as soon as I reached payout - so there went my only chance to fund it - and bux.to takes 90 days or mare to process payouts regardless of balance - so unless you are willing to pay for the upgrades for me and wait til I reach payout to pay you back - I just cannot do it. - and I think it would take many payouts to pay you back- I would make sure you got paid back - but it would still take quite a bit of time -

so I appreciate the advice and understand where you are coming from - but I can't spend what I don't have. - and as well I just found out that my disability is ending in sept - unless my doctor can convince them to renew it - and if that happens I will be in even more trouble than I am now - as that will mean - that I will no longer have a job to go back to once I am finally healthy- so I have to be even more careful in my spending now.


thanks for caring so much

Karen

Karen,

No problem. Again, sorry to hear of your troubles. I meant well though.

Hope things will work out !

ya know, the offer's still open for you to take cash payments from the site even though you're still paying for an upgrade. For those wondering about this, thinking it's not fair to the others who are still paying for their upgrades, if anyone else has the same troubles as Kaerbaer, the same offer would apply.

ok - I know I said I wasn't going to be online for qiote a while and I DO mean it - but I also said it was due to what was going to be a traumatic day at the hospital - and traumatic it was -

first the good news - I have had sufficient improvement that he decided not to do the shots in the belly as I am up to 5 min a day on the bike - now for the rest

I had a bone density test that came back saying I have very thin bones and am osteoperetic (sp) - or have osteoperosis both are the same thing - he also tested my right leg and found it to be incredibly weak compared to my left leg - so he ordered a nerve test - the test showed considerable damamge to the nerves in my right leg - he is having me get some blood work done later this week to see if he can find the cause - but this damage may be irreversible meaning I may be on disability and in a wheelchair for life since I also cannot risk any further falls. - he still wants me to practice walking as it does help to strenthen your bones - it won't fix them but it might help prevent a fracture and he wants me to continue on the bike ( up to five minutes now by the way) to make sure my left side stays storng and to try and encourage the muscles in my right leg to work - I go back in august to see him and get the blood test results to see if they can figure out the cause of the nerve damaga and to see if they can fix it.

While he was examining my leg today he noticed I have a great deal of pain in my right hp - and the right lower back - and he is extremely concerned that there is strucural gamage there - so he is trying to find out if i have ever had x-rays done of that area and if not I will be getting them in Aug - so although my belly seems to be healing itself to the point he thinks it is time to start lowering the dose of my meth - starting in august - he also thinks I may never be able to walk or work ever again due to this nerve damage if he can't fix it

so now I have a new thing to be scared about - ain't life grand?

so that is it for now - I will not tell you anything about my trauma therapy that I am now required to take - they think this illness has been traumatic for me - as that is far to touchy a subject for me - and I don't think I can handle it

so I am off the air for a while - at least until I have recovered enough mentaly and physically to deal with all this again

I really appreciate your support and kindessess and your generousity and the little donations and not so little donations you have given me over the past few years - note to the mods - not asking for any - just thanking for what I have rec'd - they have all helped emmensely (sp) with lowering my stress levels and easing my mind and made me feel less alone in this world - and that is a huge thing to me - I will never be able to repay all of you for that but I am trying to help you all as well - I used some of the points I have acquired thru the raffles to buy ads for some of my ptps and my searches so I have another source of income and so that you have a new source of points - sorry I can't afford cash ones - if I ever get to the point where I can I will def get cash ones for you as it is the only way I know to pay you back - give you more to earn and click on.

hope it helps,



Karen

I give what I can afford and am happy to do so. I have a weak left leg due to spinal disc damage that was avoidable. I first got slipped discs when I was lifting my (adoptive) Mother in and out of bed. Only later did I discover that the woman up the road had been given a hoist to help her do the same. The difference was she had a different social worker to me and maybe shouted more. But when you are dealing with someone with dementia it can drain you so much that you have no fight left.

But I have strong bones (had a bone scan) due to the HRT I had for years after losing both ovaries. And my walking is limited and I have to use a stick but at least I am not in a wheelchair. Thanks for helping me to put my problems into perspective. I felt so depressed about it only yesterday.

So, this means I'm doing the raffles again?

no - you are not - I already posted in the Raffles winners topic that I will not be doing anything for the raffles til I feel better - but I am challenging the members to close as many as possible while I am off - as that would be some of the best medicine - coming back to a bunch of closed raffles I have to do - I asked them to see how many of the then 28 raffles they cold get closed before I get back - and so far 2 more have close - so I am very happy and will hopefully be able to do them soon - -

But I WILL DO THEM - I just have to get better first - I already told them you have nothing to do with the raffles so not to bother you about them - if they have any questions they are to post in the forum or pm me - and I will try to check in and answer sas much as I can when I feel up to it -

now leave my raffles alone and let me rest - quite trying to freak me out - you meanie - lol - the raffles are what are keeping me going after the news I rec'd yesterday - so please just let them be and I will get to them when I am feeling better.

now I am going back to resting and recovering - lol

Love ya Ron



Karen

Oops, OK, I'll go slink back to my corner and watch quietly for a while.

As always, you're in my prayers and I wish the best for you.

Hi Karen,

If necessary, do not worry about not being online for a few days. Get some rest or do what you have to do to get better, etc.

As for working again, would working online in some capacity be a possibility ?

Again, hope you feel better soon !

My opinion is to upgrade to lifetime gold with the matrix because you will eventually get 4 to upgrade to the matrix under you at which time your lifetime upgrade becomes almost free (you'd still be $9 short. With the gold lifetime upgrade, the PTCs are worth 2¢ each times the usual 10 per day is 20¢ per day times 30 days per month gets you $6 times 12 months is $72 less the $69 paid for the mlifetime gold upgrade leaves $3 profit the first year and $72 profit a year after that. There's no PTP page there which is good, IMO, along with no worthless links to click.

You have 2 conflicting bits of advice. It is up to you as too which one to take. But I be careful as there seems to be problems there with paypal. I posted on the forum that I can't csh out to paypal and someone else said paypal refused to allow a payment. Neither of us have had a reply yet.

That's odd as I have a payment today from Matrixmails in the amount of $45.21

thanks for the info - both of you - I think I probably would go with the matrix - except I don't have any funds at all so unless someone volunteers to pay for my upgrade either as a gift or letting me pay them back as I can over a looooong period of time - I don't think it's going to happen for me for a very long time - especially with the current state of my insurance - my finances and my questionable future I can't afford to upgrade anywhere until things are settled at least for another year. and before the mods think I am asking for donations again - I am not - I am just stating that I cannot do this due to a serious lack of funds and I do NOT expect anyone to want to pay for me to upgrade at a site.

it would be nice but not expected or asked for

all my love to everyone - and yes I am still freaking out as I am waiting to hear if I still have ltd as well - as it is supposed to end in september and they haven't asked for an update yet - and they ussually do 4 months in advance - and there are only 2 months left so freaking is required - lol



kaerbaer

I'm also kinda wondering how's the support system over there at Matrixmails ? After seeing that some posts have not been answered in their forum for some time ? I'm still a fairly new member in that program. How has their support been over the years ?

I had an issue come up shortly after joining that was handled via email in less than 72 hours and my payment of $45.21 was right on time.

That's good to know. Do you understand how their in-site mailer works ? I'm trying to send my downline members an e-mail to encourage them to click more. But do not know if the e-mail had gotten through to them or not.

Haven't tried it yet so I have no idea about that or who (other than you and K) are in my downline.

Do you know what was the breakdown of the $45.21 ? For instance, how much of it were from clicks ? I'm also wondering how much did you make from having a lifetime gold member in me in your downline ?

Thanks !

how do you know who is in your downline - or who your upline is? - when I clicked on veiw downline - I got an empty box that told me to enter the names there - which found weird - but I can't see who my upline is or how my downline is



Karen

Kaerbaer,

Good hearing from you ! How are you doing ?

I think you can't. Ron was personally told that K and I were in his downline. I sent Ron some PM's asking him questions about the program, before letting him know I was joining in his downline for good.

$30.00 was from having 2 referrals upgrade to gold lifetime
$ 8.00 was from having 2 referrals in the matrix
$ 1.20 was from Personal Clicks bonusses
$ 0.10 was from Downline earning bonuses
$ 5.80 was from Personal Clickthrus
$ 0.11 was from Referral Clickthrus
$45.21 into Paypal account ready to be disbursed to widdle bears

Only way I know of to tell who is in your downline is to check the matrix. Another way might be to email your downline and ask them to reply so you know who is there.

ETA: I just checked the site and it appears that it's OK and recommended that you contact them to get them to click more, upgrade, but not to advertise any other sites

The contact section can not be used to advertise any other site. The aim is:
To contact your free referrals and encourage them to upgrade their status by helping them personally or by offering them a part of your bonus.
To contact your single gold or silver referrals and offer them to upgrade to a matrix (package) membership. (of course you also must be a matrix member)
To contact your matrix downline and share your opinions on how you can increase your earnings and offer them to work together. Do not forget that these members are your partners.

So, I guess it's OK to ask for a reply so you can see who they are? Best to check with their Admin first, just in case.

Ok, that's good to know. I guess only upgraded downline members will be added to your matrix right ?

Thanks !

Only the ones who get the Package upgrade (with matrix) go into the matrix whereas the ones who get Silver Single or Gold Single do not.

Did they actually state it was a rule or a term that no PTP's are to be promoted in their site ?

I didn't mean they were illegal there, just that I've yet to see one. All the ads I recall were for non PTRE sites and no PTP links either. I doubt they'd refuse an ad for any PTRE or PTP site. You may want to check with the PTP site you want to promote to ensure they are approved at Matrix Mails before you place your ad.

Hi,

wasn't ignoring you - just have a lot on my mind lately - like trying to figure out just how serious this thin bones thing is that it would cause my doctor to jusmp automaticaly to - never work or walk again - be in wheelchair rest of my life
you know - thaose kinds of cheery life affirming statements designed to give one hope for the future - NOT

and since I have been researching these things on line - I have not been feeling any better - and to top it off I am having an assessment done for all thraume in my life - and it is 5 - 2 hour sessions - I had one last week and one today - and of course the best way to improve your outlook on life is to be telling someone all the bad things that have happened to you in your life - which I doubt anyone here cares to hear about - you are all probably sick of hearing me go one about being sick - but I do appreciate you letting me as this is my only outlet and the only place I get encouragement and hope and help. A very nice member has volunteered to loan me the money for a gold lifetime membership at matrix as soon as they get the funds - so a big thank you to that special person. I really hope it works.

I was also sadden that no raffles have closed since I put up the challenge to see how many the members could close before I was well enough to process them - I am not there yet - but I was hoping to be soon - today squashed that little bit of hope as I got more depressed and a migraine from todays session - but I am trying.

Oh well Life goes on I guess

thanks to everyone who cares for everything you do and have done - it means more to me than I can ever say - I say thank you a lot I know that - but I don't know what else to say -

so big hugs to you all



Karen

Karen, my friend Dave has moved around quite a bit so had to keep changing Doctors. They changed their views but for about 15 years he "had" Irritable Bowel Syndrome". He finally got a Doctor who wondered why he was aneamic and after about a year of tests he was finally diagnosed with Celiac Disease. Why disease I will never know because it is an intolerance to gluton found in grains like wheat. And the affect is if he eats gluton the food goes through the body far too quickly for the vitamins and minerals to be absorbed. But not the calories so he was a big man.

The misdiagnosis means he has lost 60% of his bone strength and now takes a calcium supplement and is encouraged to eat and drink plenty of dairy products. And naturally avoid foods with gluton. Sadly he hates gluton free bread and "he has to eat something" so often breaks his diet. On the other hand my husband's sister was told by alternative practioners that she should avoid dairy and gluton. She stuck to the diet inspite of me telling her she could almost certainly tolerate goats milk. She ignored my advice of course but a couple of years later someone else told her the same so she now uses goats milk. And she sticks so rigidly to the diet she has given up milk chocolate.

But he has not had a broken bone for over 20 years. And in this country even people with brittle bone disease with means a strong hug could break bones work. Just because you are in a wheelchair does not mean you cannot work. I can see it would be difficult for those who have poor literacy skills and can really only do basic manual jobs. But you are not one of those. You are literate and have IT skills. Just what many companies need.

Hi

I went to my gp today to find out more about my osteo - it is beyond her abilities and I have to see a specialist - osteo is diagnosed by using a bone Mineral density test which gives you a t-score - 0 is normal strong healthy bones -2.5 is osteo and I am -4. she has never seen or heard of anyone my age having a score like that in her entire career - and the last test which was 3 years ago was -.5 which means that I had a 3.5 drop in my score which is almost unheard of - she is going to run some blood tests (uggghhh - I hate those) to see if there is another reason for the osteo such as cancer.

so that is the latest update - I am going to go cry now - as I am very upset and distressed about this



Karen

Sorry to hear that kaerbaer, have a good cry, get it out of your system!
Tomorrow is another day, you may not have cancer.
I do NOT trust doctors!

I had a good yell and a huge cry with my mother - she told me to just yell til I started crying and keep going til I couldn't do both anymore and then just cry til I am all cried out - it took over 2 hours and she just sat on the bed beside me and held me and kept trying to come up wit things for me to yell about as she figured that if I can get as much fear and angr as possible vocalized it may be easier to get past it and not internalize it - which is my dad's way of handling everything - and I do feel better - but I am still upset - just not to the same degree - and she found a website that gives exercises to help build bone - and we are looking into the bone strengthing device that my doctor recommended as she has other patients that use it instead of drugs and it is working for them - mind you they are a -4 they are only a minus 2.5 which means they have only lost 25 - 40 % of their bone whereas I have lost 40-60% of my bone - so I am scared of falling again - but we are going to investigate this device and see if it actually works or is just a gimmick - although HOW we are going to find out is beyond me - and I don't have a clue how I am going to afford it - it is $2400 + taxes and possibly shipping - if I get it soon I can apply whats left of my insurance to it - but that isn't much at all. - and since my father isn't working they can't help by donating to the cost - I did find a site called wish upon a hero that allows you to put in wishes according to needs or wants and allows strangers to help each other - and I am considering doing that to see if I can raise the funds for it - but I can't afford the drugs either so I am in deep trouble with this right now.

I am going to start looking into gov't disability to see whether or not it would help and if it does have insurance as I have heard many different things - of course if I get that it will lower my LTD by the exact amount that I get thru disability - so we are very worried about the effect on my finances - of course if it comes with insurance I will be better off - at least I hope I will be as they wouldn't have premiums that come out of my disablility cutting my income even farther. but if it covers my meds it will be worth it. so I am hoping that I can find out soon and start the application process if it applies to me

sorry - rattling on again -

thanks for caring



Karen

Never apologise. Remember it took a year for them to realise my friend, Dave, was celiac and that was when they were looking into it not just telling him it was IBS. So there are many other reasons not just cancer. It could be you not eating much and not always keeping that food down.

Keep the faith, when God closes a door, he usually opens a window!
We all get through, may not seem like it at the time, but we do.
Get your rest, remember that things could be much worse!

Hi kaerbaer, just reading your update and sorry to hear about your bone loss.
I am keeping you in my prayers. Hang in there ok we care about you, so you have
friends who will listen to you vent. That's a good idea to get out all the anger and hurt
instead of keeping it all inside which will only make you sick(er).

Ron,

How long did it take from becoming a member to getting paid the $ 45.21 ? So, I can use it as a reference to encourage others to join in my, our downline.

Thanks !

Kaerbaer,

Again, sorry to hear of some of your problems. Sometimes, it's good to let out a good cry. Believe me if there are people out there that'd cry at a drop of an hat, then you're certainly entitled to cry every now and then about some of your dilemmas.

Perhaps, I know that under the circumstances it may be a little easy for me to say, but perhaps another constructive or helpful advice could be would be to try laughter sometime ? For instance, I try to make an effort to go out of my way and watch something on TV that'll make me laugh perhaps on a daily basis, even if it's just an half hour TV show or something. That's good advice for anyone and not just for those who may be going through some difficult or challenging times.

Hi,

That's a good idea, however laughter is very painful as it uses the abdominal muscles and that is where my nerves are damaged and 90% of my pain is coming from.

I do read a lot of books that are very humourous in nature and I play a lot of games that are quit entertaining - although not like a good belly laugh type of thing it is a way to escape my issues and escape reality. I use them to forget that I can't walk now or possibly ever and to forget the nerve damage and the "severely" thin bones.

it is hard to forget it completely tho as my family is treating me like a fragile doll - I am not allowed to do anything by myself anymore unless they are not home and can't stop me - but even then they are constantly calling to check up on me. - Hard to get past issues when you are constintly being reminded - but I am trying.

I know I have to be extremely careful from now on as every move I make can possibly fracture anything. but that doesn't mean I want to be reminded every time I go the bathroom - lol

oh well - it will take everyone time to adjust - and I do believe the saying " Don't hug Mom you could break her" is now being changed to "don't hug Karen you can break her"

I am the youngest person my doctor knows of to have osteo and the only person she knows period to have it this bad.

we are hoping that she just doesn't know too many people - lol

I also talked to my Company about my LTD and it looks like they are extending it - they also want me to apply for government disability as well - which won't change my income as what ever I get from the one is subtracted from the other - which really sucks but you get what you get and you deal with it - and once I have gov't disability - I can apply for gov't insurance which will help pay for my drugs which is a bonus. - but it appears they have changed the program around alot and they no longer supply you with medical benefits like my Dr has been telling me - so I am not sure exactly what I am going to do - but the drug coverage will be very good

as long as I don't break anything I should be okay



Karen